It's Just ADHD

I'm sitting here
Day after day
Wanting to get up
Wanting to go out
But the fear of the world
Holds me down
Restrains me

It's just ADHD

These medications you give me
Only creates an addiction
You say they're for me own good
Keep me under control
Prevent me from acting up

It's just ADHD

When I go off for just one day
The will to move
To be active
Escapes
As the hunger
The cravings for food
Intensify
It makes me feel useless
Like I will never be
Able to get off my
Medication

It's just ADHD

All I can think about is
When I'm on my own
Paying for everything
Will I have enough money for
Food
Clothing
Shelter
And still be able to afford
The medication the doctors
Prescribe so I can be "normal"

It's just ADHD

I don't want to be normal
I want to be who I am
I was happy before the medication
I was active before the medication
I wasn't over weight before the medication

It's just ADHD

The pills I take can kill me
The wrong dosage for them can destroy
My cardiovascular system
Stop my heart
Tell me why are you giving me something
That could ultimately
End
My
Life

It's just ADHD

I tell you to listen to me
But all you do is listen to a person
Who doesn't even know me
They may have my medical history
But they don't know me
They're not there with me
Every step of the way
You blindly take their
Advice
Without hearing what I have to say
It is my life
My body
I should have a say in what
Is going
Down
My
Throat

It's just ADHD

Not some life threatening
Disease
I don't have
Ebola
Multiple sclerosis
Or leukemia
But the way you act
Makes it seem as if I do

It's just ADHD

You talk behind my back
To professionals
Telling them thing that I don't even
Remember
Because my subconscious
Has hidden the from myself
Too much mental trauma
Well over half of my childhood is gone because
I
Don't
Remember

It's just ADHD
Right?